thoughts

early this summer, i had complained alot about being bored here in tucson, worried about getting a job and found life very meaningless and uninteresting --- a far cry from what i'm used to if i'm in singapore at this time.

it has been nearly 2 months since then and now my weekends are always filled with activities (like the chicken rice cook-out seesion, dinner with zhenlin and yanny on sat at some mexican restaurant and pimm's party last weekend) -- every weekend i have something to do. you know what's the funny thing ---- the busier i get with stuff, the more i find myself distancing from God. sometime when i drink or have too much fun, i will be so tired and forget to pray and spend time with him. i don't find my life to be rich at all.

a few years ago, drinking and having fun is part of my life but now i like to slow down and yes, to have some fun occasionally but the most important thing of all, i want to be close to God as he is the only person who can make my life richer.

also, i could have been very worried with the job search, project work and stuff but i believe that God is trying to build me up with all these experiences in life. now, i learn to worry LESS and have faith in him.

"Endure hardship as discipline; God is treating you as sons. . . . No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it" (Heb. 12:7,11).