sometimes.. i hope to lead a very normal & predictable life.

graduate from poly, if possible go to a local university and then off to work at a local firm. very simple kind of life and maybe an enclosed one too.

i have been here in the states for 5 years already. it is still very hard to deal with people leaving and all those long distance kind of things. maybe is just me, i'm a sucker for relationships.. friends leaving, me flying in and out of singapore, leaving all my friends in arizona and come to california and have to deal with a complete new environment again. it is tiring. as i grow older, i want a place called home. i'm sick of flying and people coming in and out of my life.

this time coming back from sin was especially hard. i don't know why.

i'm still trying hard to adjust back to life here again.. california is not my cup of tea. everything.. humans, places are just all too far off from each other. since coming here, i have been very grateful for the help and some very amazing people that i have gotten to know but.... i don't think i have been very happy.

like what i have said before, whether is at work or outside, im very grateful for things here but i'm not happy. maybe is time to go home for good soon.

i'm tried.