On the issue of.....Understanding, Knowing, Finding the Truth before Concluding

circumstances, people you meet, experiences, upbringing are very powerful.

Because, all these mould the way we feel about things.

all these years spend growing up, one thing that i have learned and tried to do is to understand the situation first before making any assumptions and remarks.

sometimes is hard. when i hear things that i don't think is right, it is very natural for me to become defensive and try to argue the case. now, i try my best to first take a deep breathe and step away from the situtation to look @ things in a bigger picture. we humans, tend to be very myopic; alway looking at things right in front of us. BAD!

for instance, i FEAR having kids coz i have heard enough bad stories of the pain of pregnancy. but then, i don't know, maybe i'm wrong, maybe is not so bad after all. who knows? maybe after i've been through the whole experience, i will realise that hmm... is not too bad and shitty after all.

take for another instance, before i became a believer, i HATE christians coz i think all they want is MONEY and i don't agree with how some of the churches approach the topic!

i have been a believer for emm.. 2 years. you know what i learned --- there are always bad apples around. nothing is perfect. NOT u and NOT me too.

i'm blessed that i got to know christ through love. when i first attended the fellowship in tucson, NONE of them approached me about whether if i want to be saved. if they did, i will ask them to go eat DA BIAN and also, at that moment, i'm enjoying my life too much to give a damn about religion.

however, one day, i decided to find out the TRUTH. what the heck is christianity about? is it just another religion? what's the deal about going to hell if you are not saved? (to me THEN, this is utter bullshit) What's salvation? zhun bo?

i always thought that the bible does not allow people to drink liquor. i remembered me telling mark. siao liao lah.. i cannot do this! ask me to choose between alcohol and bible, of course drinking with friends lah!

.....but then, i'm WRONG. the bible didn't say that we cannot drink. mark mentioned that even jesus drinks wine. the thing that the bible is asking is not to over-drink=drunk.

so.. i began my journey of finding the TRUTH.

it has really been a fascinating one. a journey that i will never regret.