***ESCAGOTS*** !!!!

we had that when we went to the belgium restaurant in palm springs. it is all in the mind. it actually tastes pretty normal --- like eating clams.

but it is not exactly stuff that i would like to eat often.

over coffee yesterday, DY and i started talking about our childhood memories.

i have been raised by great parents and a wonderful family. i am thankful to my parents for bringing me to places such as indonesia and thailand. going to 3rd world places like these make me realise how lucky i am. not only that, i get to appreciate and absorb different cultures too. it opens up my little mind.

i absolutely adore thailand. i love their beaches and the amazing flavors in their food. bangkok is a fantastic place to shop and phuket and the surrounding islands are just breathtaking.

i seldom bitch about life because i do realise that i have been very lucky. DY always complains that he is suay but then i told him, how many people can land their feet here in california. yesterday, while we were at palm springs, we went into this shop selling paintings/wildlife pictures. i love the picture of bisons walking through the winter storm. reason...... to remind us of how lucky we are to be here in this gorgeous california weather. he gave me the "whatever" look but i'm sure my words will stuck in his head. he is that kind of "mouth hard heart soft" person.

anyhow... i'm a happy child. i had the best childhood and my parents did a fantastic job in raising me up:))))))

humans hate uncertainties.

however, i have learned to cope and live with it. i guess in life, some things are beyond your control and is really okay to live in the unknown. at least for me, it gets easier as time goes by because... i have the Lord. I have learned to really live by faith and know that he will take care of me.

"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you: i will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10

those close to me will know what's happening in my life the last couple of months. during the last 2 months, my two main companions had been fear and anxiety. to date, i have spoken to at least 4 doctors (a 5th one just a while ago, thanks to DY who is always so concern and even went to ask his doctor friend who is in chicago for more 2nd opinions) and did countless blood tests, xrays, CT scan and read up. still, no one is sure of what exactly is the small little thingy in my lung.

according to the pulmonologist, the highest possibility is that it could very well be valley fever so i have to check back with him every 2-3 months for the next 2 yrs.

anyhow, life still goes on. i don't want to waste my time worrying. life is short. i dont want to look back and regret how silly of me to spend the few months in misery. with people around me who are all in the medical field, i should be fine :))) and also the powerful and mighty Lord.

tarn's graduation. i have been tremendously blessed. she's the gal who took care of me whenever i'm not feeling well. one phone call, no question asked and she will be at my place. the Lord has blessed me with these wonderful gals. love them to death :))

laguna beach. my favourite beach at this moment.




view from the restaurant where we had lunch.

even though i still dont know what's wrong with my health, i have been feeling better and my appetite is coming back :))))

now.... pretty much all i do during the weekend is to eat and eat. lifz is so good with food around.

i love korean food. this tofu house in garden grove is the best! all the protein that i ever need.

lunch @ la brisas. i like it. though portion is abit small but this dish has a pretty interesting flavor. i had breakfast there before and it was fantastic. a restaurant with one of the best views in laguna beach, right on the cliff and if you get the right table, the ocean is pretty much right next to you.

anyhow, after lunch, i needed to go to my favourite place in laguna for some dessert. as usual, nothing beats a good gelato ice-cream ----- chocolate hazelnut. i'm in heaven!

so we walked and walked. it was a great day to be out strolling at the beach. but after a while, the legs needed a rest. so here we were, at this pastry shop, having my tiramisu and some solid caffine.

i love cheeseeeee.

smoked gouda, gruyere, brie, feta, pepperjack, swiss, mascarpone :)))))))

how funny can lifz be?

solitude i once like but not anymore.

man does not live on bread alone. very true.

i'm getting fat. i have been eating way too much.

what a brillant way to get me to drink alcohol again!

last friday, i was hesitant in joining my co-workers for drinks after work; then DY mentioned something.... that will help KILLS ANY GERMS in the body.

wau.. yah hor.